Can we really TRUST ppl surounding us???

~ 30th Sept 2006 Saturday

Hmn...received a call from uncle...realised something...
Can we really trust people surrounding us?even the close ones?
I beginning to wonder can we really trust people?

Well...can say that many people seems to be concern about you..ur studies..ur work...etc..but deep down in their mind...can u really know wat's their real motive? well..motive seems to be a harsh word to use..but at this moment..i really cant think of any words to use...

Honestly, i treat ppl with 100% or maybe 98~99% of sincerity..and trust..but wat if ppl betray ur trust...and talk behind u...then wat would u do? Becos of my religion..love ppl & love ur enemy...dun hav ill thoughts on others..dun expect ppl to treat u back in return...I treat ppl well...can say not much motive or even frank to them..yet some juz betray my trust...discuss wat i told them with others...not once..but quite some times...

This kind of feeling really not very good...the feelin of betray really hurts my heart...i dun expect ppl to return any favour to mi...wat i do for them were only wat i feel like to do for ppl...

Let's not mention that..wat really hurts mi was wat i confided in others...they like "helpin" mi to advertise...haha!!!

So 'kind' of them...but i tot that suppose to be between tat person & I...but...Arhh....my mama told mi to forgive those who has badmouth or talk bad about u...love them...dun bear any grudge...I know..I know...but it's always easy to say hard to do.....but i definitely will try!

But at this moment, I really duno who I can trust? my mama definitely is the most trustful person to me...as for the rest...I duno...I think i am goin to loose trust in ppl...i think i will hav to try dun be too good to others...trust only myself...mind my own business...dun bother much about others....ha ha...

Feel much better after 'venting' my angony here...heehee...