My Dear Brother ^_<

~ 28 Oct 2005 Friday

Hmn..now the time is 3am in the morning...must be wondering why so late i m still online...heehee....i online to check mail..then i happened to dropby my friendster acct...& was surprised to receive a testimonial from brother...i wrote him a testimonial days ago...& i never expected him to write one for mi....& was really very touched after reading wat he wrote...now i know....how much he dotes on mi, this naughty sister...heehee...really very very touched...

That's wat he wrote in my friendster testimonial:
"Yushan is my dear sister..REAL sister...I am glad to have u as my sister and i hope u can become a better person after what had happened..what is over is over..so now study hard and faster get your degree.Hmm..yushan can be very very stubborn at times..however sometimes can be very good to me. She likes to draw snoopy and i dunno y ..haha!She is a homely gal,which like to do things by herself,independent( however like to depends alot on my mother, and i think she should change that.), friendly,and blah blah...Hope she can find a boyfriend soon..hahaha..but if i know whoever bully her, i MAKE SURE i won't let he/she off !!Ok lah..wish you all the BEST in whatever u do..u will always be my dearest sister ! :) "

Oh...can't imagine my brother will write such things abt mi...i know he dotes on mi years ago...but till now then i realised how much he dotes on mi....ever since papa left us...he's the next kin closer to mi beside mama....even though he's not that kind of person tat will express how much he dotes mi...but he's action will proved tat he really dotes on mi..that's how i feel the past few months....he's such a dear to mi...

Hmn..since i m talking abt my brother...might as well let mi emphasis more on him....well....
We were in the same kindergarten, same pri sch...& very coincident in the same sec sch...& more coincident in the same poly...& gues wat doing the same course...hahaa...that's the bond between us....hahhaa....no lah...all coincidence lah....

During primary sch, i remembered we took school bus to sch...but when in sch...we seldom hang out together...he's always with his friends while i m always with my friends...whenever he's in trouble, his teacher will ask mi to go to his class...then teacher will ask mi this & tat regarding my brother...actually he's really smart...he's in the EM1 and he's good in his maths & science...as for chinese....ok lah...manageable...then i remembered there was once, a male classmate of mine bullied mi...then my brother knew abt it...he went to warn that boy...dun ever bully mi...if not he will beat him...haha...that's him..he will go warn tat person himself...without letting mi know...i only got to learn abt this from my tat classmate...since then everybody was terrified when i mentioned " i go & tell my brother"...Guess wat..when we were back home after school...cos both mama & papa working..so we'll be at home with grandma & aunt...quite bored...yet there's freedom...dun have to do hmwk in the afternoon...we always do after 6pm...(cos by that time parent back from work)..so in the afternoon we will play games...if not we will act as if we r the wrestlers...haha...jumping on mama & papa's bed...hahaha....quite fun...

Then sec school..i m the prefect..so most of his classmates know who i m...but during sec sch times, he's abit rebilious...but still "good" to mi...he will like so called "bride" mi...with swatch watches..haha...no lah..not really bride lah...he wanna mi to hel him do things arh...or wat ever lah....i think i received about 5 swatch watches from him..hahhaa....

Well...we do quarrel & "fight" with each other...but that's common between siblings...rite?
I remembered our "fight" not those light beating ..but can be quite fierce...haha...there's this time...we quarrelled over the tv remote control..& he's so fierce tat he scratched my right hand....& the wound started to bleed non-stop....scared both mama & papa....now the scars can still be seen on my hand...then there's this time...when he's so angry with mi tat..he held a chair on his hand...& threw directly at mi...but missed...cos i run away...then there's once, he punched on my shoulder...oh tat really hurt...i could feel my bone cracked...see...our fight really fierce...but once i also punched him on his face...haha...can u imagine i had difficulties in punching him...cos he's like taller than mi ....my head only till his shoulder...so i still managed to punch him..cos i m really angry..cos i think he slapped mi..hahaha...

Then our communication became lesser & lesser...as he moved on to poly...he seldom at home...then he joined the navy...so always out in sea...so the time i see him lessen....but when papa left...it seems to bring us closer together...maybe he felt tat papa no longer ard..he should take care of mama & mi...cos he's the elder child & son....well..then i see the changes in him...i used to dislike him in the past..cos i always tot mama dotes him more than mi...cos whenever we quarrelled...mama will end up scolding mi even though it's not my fault....so i felt so unfair...however in between...some things happened....& this helps to bring our relationship closer & closer....i begin to understand....i can feel the love around mama, kor & mi....now there's a new member...joyce...my sister-in-law...actually i dun quite like her in the beginning...cos i tot kor will have no time for mi....but no...there's addition member to shower mi with care & concern.....i feel great...it will be better if papa's around.....

Hmn...now i can say....how wonderful to have this brother..i always wish my brother will be like those shown in the dramas/movies, care for the sister...beat those who bully the sister...and i never thought my brother will be one like this....cos he's seems those like dun care one but i know i am wrong about him...maybe that's the way he expressed....I hope to be his sister in my next life...I love you, kor....